The whole day has been a Deja Vu. I dreamed this day. Everywhere I went everything I did, I had dreamed it all. I don’t know it was almost like a day of revelation. It was the weirdest feeling I can’t explain. It was just nuts. We may finally have baptisms. I’m learning a lot from my new companion. It’s like I know that my heavenly father wants me to have certain attributes. I know he is trying to get me to learn them. I dreamed them.
Personal History
I’m going to categorize my life history here.
NYNYS Mission May 1-3, 1996
Some more mission memories. Joy. Looks like I was fighting a few personal demons. The funny thing is, I’ve faced these demons over and over again. Even 30 years later at unexpected times, they show their face again and again.
Sound of Freedom – Human Trafficking
I went to see Indiana Jones and the Dial of Destiny and the preview for Sound of Freedom played before the movie. Honestly, I knew it was coming out. I purposefully did not watch the preview because the topic is sickening to me. There I was, stuck in the movie theater watching the preview. I was so moved by the preview, I started to tear up. It was so much more powerful than I ever expected it to be.
NYNYS Mission April 28-30, 1996
Another round of mission stories. As I read these I remember a lot of the tension and conflict I had with my companion.
As I was new to leadership, I was the equivalent of an infant. I think he knew this and tried to take advantage of it.
Dandelions
I was mowing the lawn today and noticed a number of dandelions growing in the lawn. I’m not sure why but at that moment my thoughts reflected upon my neighbor David.
NYNYS Mission April 25, 1996
Happy 23 Birthday.
You’re 23 and just begun.
When we’re 23 we will be done.
Seeing though the veil.
Have you ever wondered what it would be like to see through the veil? If not completely through the veil, then maybe a glimpse?
NYNYS MISSION PHOTOS 1995 TO 1997
NYNYS Mission Photos
NYNYS Mission April 18-20, 1995
So, some more mission stories. I must say. I’m not going to justify my actions. I realize growing up, it took me a while to really clue into life. Once I clued in, I realized I wasn’t naturally born with leadership skills. I’m grateful for these experiences. But from what I’m reading about myself, I kind of feel like I was more an expletive than a leader. I know some people wouldn’t acknowledge their faults quite like this, but I admit I have them
Screaming Evil Spirits
As we continued to walk, I was filled with a pit of complete despair so much so that I felt I could not walk up any further. I stopped. I turned to Ben and Kevin. I said, I can’t go any further, I feel something evil up here. Ben told me he agreed. He had felt something evil as well.