Wow, rain all day. 12 hours straight. Wow did we get wet. It’s a good thing we didn’t have an appointment today or we wouldn’t have gotten very wet. A member made us some hot chocolate. That was nice of them. Well, that’s about the extent of it all. Transfer calls came and [Elder] and I are together for one more month.
Personal History
I’m going to categorize my life history here.
NYNYS Mission June 1-2, 1996
I had a sister missionary at the baptism last night tell me my spanish was better than my companion’s. I guess she hasn’t heard much of it. My Spanish bites. But, It was kind of flattering because my companion doens’t trust my Spanish and wont let me speak.
NYNYS Mission May 28-31, 1996
I had been out and around Manhattan all day. When I went back to meet my comp in Time Square an Elder told me a girl, a nanny from Connecticut was looking for me and she was just there. She was now up the street so I ran up the street. I went up the street I saw a little crowd of girls and Lisa, Matt Johnson’s girlfriend was there. She remembered I was in New York and looked for me. Of all the days we ended up in Manhattan on the same day. What a blessing. She was even at my farewell. Wow.
NF – My opinion about the rapper NF
I went to an NF concert a week ago with Robbie. I was blown away. It was so powerful. I was so impressed. I would actually be a bit embarrassed to completely explain the way it impressed me.
Don’t expect overflowing intellect.
I’m not an intellectual. Don’t expect examples of complex intellectualism here. I try to see it and say it as I see it.
Falling to My Death
As I have been reading my mission journals, I have come across many instances where I kept my past a secret. I’m not 100% sure what it was. The desire could have been from embarrassment or a feeling as though it was not appropriate. There was an extreme embarrassment around peers. Having to explain why I was so far behind my peers.
NYNYS Mission May 14-23, 1996
Nothing more counts than doing your best. What does it matter if someone is better? Will you become worse because you are focusing on them (something you are not) and not focusing on yourself (something you are)?
I am starting to respect my companion a lot. He’s actually a very good guy. He has a lot of excellent qualities. I am very much loving his companionship.
Kim Curtis – Angel of Light
One day I was standing outside a classroom, waiting for one class to end and another to start when this girl exited the classroom. To my astonishment, she was radiating with the most glorious light shining all around her. She glowed like an Angel. I instantly felt drawn to her. The next week I waited outside the door again, hoping to see this girl a second time. Again she was glowing with light. I knew I needed to know her, but I lacked the courage to talk to her.
NYNYS Mission – May 10-13, 1996
The whole day has been a Deja Vu. I dreamed this day. Everywhere I went everything I did, I had dreamed it all. I don’t know it was almost like a day of revelation. It was the weirdest feeling I can’t explain. It was just nuts. We may finally have baptisms. I’m learning a lot from my new companion. It’s like I know that my heavenly father wants me to have certain attributes. I know he is trying to get me to learn them. I dreamed them.
NYNYS Mission May 1-3, 1996
Some more mission memories. Joy. Looks like I was fighting a few personal demons. The funny thing is, I’ve faced these demons over and over again. Even 30 years later at unexpected times, they show their face again and again.