I made a video talking about this yesterday. My phone was buggy, so I had to break it up into a few videos. I’ll include the video here.
MAKING A VIDEO
I must be doing okay; I made a video.
Honestly, the whole video thing has been hard to start. I feel dumb, I look fat, my background sucks, my recording and editing process isn’t great, my glasses look crooked, and my mouth is doing something funny on one side. I have a bunch of reasons not to do it, but I did it anyway. Oh well.
Once I overcome those doubts, I realize I also need to defend my positions, not say anything stupid, and know what I’m talking about. I’m not afraid to share my thoughts, but I know there are many people far smarter than me. I’m not trying to come across as an intellectual. Some things just make sense to me and fit together like a puzzle. Other things, I feel deeply in my soul. I’m not afraid to share those.
GO TO THE TEMPLE
The other morning, I woke up at 2:30 AM. I got up and started working. While I was working, out of the blue, I had the thought, “Go to the temple.” I thought about it, but I didn’t really want to. Instead, I was focused on my heavy workload. I wanted to get some work done while relaxing in my warm, comfortable home. I believe it had also been raining and snowing that night.
In short, I didn’t go.
I’ve thought about this a dozen times over the last week. Why was I so stubborn? Why didn’t I just go? There are half a dozen temples near me. I easily could have gone to one and still made it to work on time.
I can’t say I got any extra work done that day. It was simply a busy day, like all the others. All I walked away with was a memorable regret.
My journey to be “Worthy of Zion” is primarily a path to be worthy of the blessings of God—a path of faith and repentance. But even more so, it is a path of learning to feel and recognize the promptings of the Holy Ghost. Do I know His voice? When He speaks, will I follow?
I think I proved this week that I need more practice.
THE PHONE CALL
I received a phone call this week from an old friend. She worked for me many years ago, and then we started a business together. The business didn’t last long for various reasons, and after parting ways, we didn’t stay in close contact.
Lately, I’ve been more cautious about what I do. In the past, I’ve chased every idea I’ve had, trying to create a successful business. But each time, when I was in the thick of it, I realized I was running blind, with no direction or confirmation that I was on the right path for me.
So, I decided I would only do those things I feel prompted to do. Starting a business can take a tremendous amount of time, energy, and resources. Now she’s asking me to help her with her business. I felt something while talking to her, so I’m going to investigate it and see where it leads. Time will tell.
A PARTING THOUGHT
“If you have felt the influence of the Holy Ghost today, you may take it as a sweet evidence that the atonement is working in your life.” Henry B Eyring Come Unto Christ BYU Devotional
https://speeches.byu.edu/talks/henry-b-eyring/come-unto-christ/
HOW DID I DO?
Like always, I could do better. I didn’t fast this last week at all. I’ve done OK reading and praying, but I have noticed that I have not had any deep prayers and I can feel it. I have been super overwhelmed at work. I didn’t imagine being this overwhelmed, but I have been. It has made it hard to do this blog and many other things. I know things will shift in the next month or so. So, not too bad.