I was reflecting today on my efforts to be Worth of Zion.
I have had so much going on.
- I had a big conference I had to prepare for at work
- I had the conference
- I had a lot of work to make up due to the conference
- I had dealers come into town that put me further behind
- I was already behind due to going on trek
- I had to prepare for a talk in sacrament meeting last Sunday
- I have felt completely exhausted the last few days
Isn’t it funny how life catches up with you.
- I haven’t fasted for maybe 2 weeks
- I haven’t prayed as much as I should
- I haven’t read my scriptures as much as I should
- There is a long list of things I could have done to be a better father and husband
- There is a long list of things I could do to be a better person
- Stand in holy places
- Eye single to the Glory of God
I’m always so amazed how easily I can fall prey to the vices of this world.
I have listened to some presentations on the last days. They were OK. I wouldn’t necessarily call them uplifting and inspiring.
If I rated my week, It would not be high. Or still needs improvement.
I think about the atonement in situations like this; weeks like this. Jesus is going to have to be pretty forgiving if I am to go anywhere good.
So one measurement I would look at is, when is the last time I felt the Holy Ghost. Not a lot recently. I did during my talk last Sunday. I didn’t when I swore at work this week. That was interesting. I could picture the word in my mind as I was saying it. It was like slow motion thinking it and simultaneously saying it, then realizing I didn’t need to. D’oh.
Nothing I can do about it now.