Jan 3, 1996
I’m trying my best to straighten out my thoughts.
I’m suffering from my mind.
My thoughts:
I was a drug addict before cleaning up and going on a mission. For many years, I didn’t feel like I fit in or think like normal people. That combined with all of the things in my mind, that I witnessed or participated in. It’s like a sewage cocktail that poisons the mind body and soul. In 1996, I was only a short time removed from that previous life.
Even though the statements are short, they remind me of the journey I took to find redemption. They also remind me of the darkness, the shadows, and the secrets that are in the hearts of men. They remind me of the struggle to overcome darkness with light and how difficult the path of redemption is.
It would have been better to have never taken that path in life. But I cannot undo the past. I thank the Lord for preparing a path of redemption. As deep and dark as those depths of despair may be, the witness of the Holy Ghost I have felt in my heart has far exceeded the darkness.
Jesus Christ, the Son of God lives. I can overcome all things through him.